I'm one of those people other people sometimes can't stand:
Always smiling.
Always optimistic.
Ready to give anyone the benefit of the doubt.
Positive that it will all work out in the end.
I am this way without irony or deceit or hyperbole. Sincere without being saccharine. I can't help but be this way, and I can't ever remember a time when I wasn't.
I have faith that people are inherently good. Yes, I know the depraved things we are capable of doing to each other, and yes, I have witnessed things that might test my faith in this principle. Still, I have faith.
I have faith that no matter the difficulties I face, there will always be a brighter tomorrow, a satisfactory ending, a way to make the hurting stop. Yes, I have felt pain, and a darkness I was certain would be impossible to climb out of, and I have watched those I love experience worse. I know many never live to see the silver lining. Still, I have faith.
I have faith that those I help along this road will appreciate it, and will be better for it. And I will be better for it. Oh yes, I have been taken advantage of emotionally and psychologically. Still, I have faith.
I have faith that loving another is never a mistake, and that love is possible for all. Yes, I have seen the way love turns to hurt turns to disdain, or worse. Still, I have faith.
Still. I have faith. Because if I don't, there is no point. For life to have meaning, I have to have faith.
Cheers to that. One must have faith on something or else we can't go on.
ReplyDeleteExactly. :-) Thanks for reading.
DeleteAdmirable when people can hold on to that faith through so many of the things you just described.
ReplyDeleteThank you, although I'm not sure it's necessarily anything worth admiring. It's not so much a choice as the way I'm wired, I guess.
DeleteYou are the person I envy. These qualities are things I strive for and cannot attain. Please retain that faith...it is your faith that balances my lack of in this world.
ReplyDeleteA fellow Jennifer! (there are so many of us haha)
DeleteThanks for reading. I don't think I'll ever lose faith in these things, and I hope you can find a bit of it eventually. :-)
That almost read like a poem to me the way it was written. I liked it.
ReplyDeletethank you :-)
DeleteYou have a gift, your unwavering faith is enviable. You have given me hope that mine may someday return.
ReplyDeleteWell I'm happy to provide you a bit of hope. I think it is a gift, like you said, just because it's something I've always had, and something that comes easily. I hope it will come easily for you too, one day.
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